people are not little stones, or keys in someone's pocket

on march 31, serbia formally apologized for not doing enough to stop the massacre of bosnian muslims in srebrenica, the un safe zone. the main reason for this apology was to do something favorable that would benefit serbia in its quest to enter the european union. yet they did not call the killings genocide, as the UN and the hague have already done.

sometimes i think about how often i am serbia. i apologize to get something in return, whether its something material, or just a pat on the back for doing a good thing. i also don't call things for what they are. i am good at skirting around the issue, at apologizing for something lesser than what is required, at making my faults seem justified when they are not. i don't want to make amends for concessional gains. i don't just want some surface-level declaratory statements that mean nothing in reality. i don't want my actions to please others. i want my everything to please God. this is my wish.

wish (v.): to want, desire, long for